So if you're careful
You won't get hurt
But if you're careful all the time
then what is it worth?
Magne Furuholmen - Cosy Prison
Artist are only really appreciated, when they’re dead and I was lucky to experience the joy, the fear and the pressure before that. The costs though were too great and severe and I don’t see myself fighting out of this one. I saw the big scary world with my own eyes and I didn’t realize what I was evolving into. They called me “The Lone Man” “Forged by Fire” and “The man that won everything”. I could never really understand why at first, but sometime along the line I was fooled for a moron and I saw myself in the mirror for the first time, I didn’t like what I saw.
I always hunted for gaining respect by my competitors and when I gained it, I could move worlds in between and destroy those inferior to my cause. Death followed my career, not in its physical sense, but in a ignorant way of saying “You are alone”. I learned from my mistakes and I always have, but my real test came at that moment and love saved me, plus Diego a little bit too. Funny thing was that I won everything worth mentioning and today I have set mirrors up all over my apartment to remind myself.
I guess there's really nothing
Nothing much to save
This place is as steardy as I feel myself
Havard Rem - A Kind of Christmas Card
I never knew my mother or father, I didn’t get to experience the united strength of a supporting family and I have always been alone. Looking at others made me feel empty and that emptiness filled my entire youth. I were self-dependent and always motivated to explore the unknown, but most of all I wanted attention. I would not have liked myself, if I met that person on the street and I think in a way I was lucky not to experience that.
The orphanage was cold and empty with no sense of direction or in a sense the time was slower. I didn't like it there and I was always reminded of the horrors at night. The discipline was harsh and my caretaker hated me, I think murderous thoughts filled her crazy for years. I couldn't feel anything inside myself at times and my life was destined to failure and not greatness. I was lucky though and one day saved my life and gave me a chance to achieve greatness, I wish Diego could hear me now.
Walked around no one around
You were the one who taught me better
This old town brings me down
You were the one who told me
Paal Savoy - Move to Memphis
I had never talked with anyone and never gotten a chance to acknowledge someone else, but I knew that something was missing and I couldn't find it. So I ran away from the orphanage with no idea or plan of why and how. The streets of Athens were cold and lonely, where my only acquaintance was a sleeping old man. It was the first time I stole food and now I had to survive.
One day I couldn't catch my breath and something was wrong, it was the first time I was close to death. For hours I awaited my destiny and when everything seemed blurry, someone came to my rescue. A boy only 4 years older than me saw me half dead and ran away not long after. He came back with water and I was never going to forget that moment. The boy stayed and when I asked for his name, he replied "My name is Diego, what's yours?"
